Today, somehow I felt that I need some time alone. I don't wish to face anyone. Not at all.

Is my worst day at work. Not that I met something bad, but is worse than that. Just this week, I set my very first target at work. And this target doesn't involve only me. I can feel that this is something I've to take it really seriously. And I did. Perhaps is that I take it way too serious, that's why I'm feeling this way now.

I put in the best effort I can to close a deal. I spent more than 2 hours. I even missed my dinner. Dinner.... I really did try to explain everything to the best of my knowledge, and even with the help of my colleagues, I couldn't. So I'm sitting down right now thinking what's lacking. I took everything so serious that I'm really mentally drained. Trying my best to hold back my tears. No more a cry baby. Tonight I don't have my bb with me. The more I'm missing him. The thought of him made me cry. Miss him so much. Throughout our years together, he'd been my greatest emotional support beside my mom. I feel so weak without him. I want you to be proud of me.

I feel as if I'm following blindly. I don't know if this is the right path for me. Maybe I should take things in one's stride. I hadn't learn the art of it yet. I can't see far now. So I'm gonna take a step at a time. I don't wish to give up.

Please let me be alone. Just for today.