It'd really been quite some time since I've blog!

Things have been good.. I mean, I started moving on, entering to a new phase of life - being an working adult! To be honest, initially I felt quite afraid, of starting everything new and need to make friends all over again. But right now, I kinda looking forward to challenges that are awaiting me. Cos I know only by overcoming my own barriers, I can become a stronger and better person. :)

Right now, I don't wish to talk about relationship at all. It feels really tiring and I am mentally drained. I am happy with how things are going right now, widening my social circle, and I hope it can just stop there. I don't really know how to handle when it comes to stuff like that, when I can sense infatuation, and yet I don't feel a single thing. I don't want to be more than friends. Hang out is perfectly fine, but not dating. Damnnnn. I am bad at this.

There'd still be times, when I started looking back, blaming how things have been falling apart, finding all sort of reasons to justify the breakup.. At the end of the day, I get nothing out of it, only - feeling heartbroken, never wanted to be in a relationship anymore, guys are so scary, and negative stuffs like that. But I don't allow myself to feel the sadness that came. So all these while, I am struggling between feeling sad, and not feeling sad. It really took me some time and tremendous courage to really face the fact.

I like this quote alot, "Good judgment comes from experience, and often experience comes from bad judgement." Only through this, I can truly know what I want, what are mistakes I shouldn't have made and things I can learn from it. Well, I am good, but not perfectly good yet. Still taking it slow and recovering. Cos I know, gohonzon will have the best arrangement for me. I will not settle for anything lesser than what I deserve.

I still wish the best for you, too. :)