Tonight, I thought of you again.. Are you in lala land? How're you these days? Did you miss me too? Do you still have flu?

I think I shouldn't even have these thoughts. 'cos I guess you don't have the time to let me cross your mind? Today on my way to work, I nearly got knocked down by a motorist. I got so freaked out that I stand still for few seconds become I can move.. And you were the one that cross my mind.

A friend told me to not force myself to move on when I'm not ready to, let my feelings out and feel what you're supposed to feel. I am in a state of confusion now. I don't know what to feel anymore. I don't even know how to think. Blank-ed. I wanted to cry, but it feel stucked. 'cos I have no idea what I did to myself, to force myself not to be depressed. My heart just felt heavy, more heavy than ever.

No one can tell me what to do. Am I gonna continue to be like this? Don't know how long more can I hold.

Are you really a happier person without me?

:'(